Happy Birthday Guillianna


 

This is what I see when I think about you – about Elijah –   I see smiles and love – so much happiness and so much love – all around you both !

 

HAPPY  birthday to a very special person – as it turns out you are the one who first called me Nana and gave Poppy his name.    It’s been a minute since you first learned to talk and it’s been a minute since we have been able to hug you.     I hope your know we are here wishing and hoping, dreaming that your birthday and every day is full of all things good.  We know your favorite class in school and we pray every day that you will hold on to so many great memories of time spent here with your aunts uncles cousins and the many friends you made.     As time continues to go by – there isn’t a birthday, grandparents day, athletic game or activity or holiday, not a regular day of any given week we don’t think about you and wish for you to be happy and know how loved you are.    We know that the older you grow the busier your life will be.  We hope it will be full  of friends,  activities,  sports and laughter.   Memories made and cherished.   Please know that your birthday is only one day each year – but everyday we are among your biggest cheerleaders – fans of both you and Eli as you continue the journey that is your life.

 

Seeing you, hearing from you makes us so very happy and we are lucky to share in the stories of your life !     You have our hearts today and always.    Your cousins are many – and while you may not see them – please know you’re missed and thought of by all.  Great Aunts and Uncles , Great Grandparents your Aunts and Uncles too – and so many friends all ask about you both.    We are all hopeful you will one day be able to visit the Mitten again with mom and dad.    Here’s a little glimpse into the past – and hopeful a smile will be brought to your face.  These are images of love and family for you to enjoy as a keepsake to remember all the love and the good that surrounded you then and is still surrounding you today and forever and for always  !


 

And – Just in case you want to see it one more time I posted  from here to the moon and back memories ( and I do not have the rights to this music so I am only using it on this for you to hear as a reminder of the millions of times we listened to it as you drifted off to sleep ) so yea it is I posted it above just  one more time.  Just so many memories to warm the soul !

WE LOVE YOU GUILLIANNA AND ELIJAH – on all of your yesterdays, TODAY,  TOMORROW AND ALWAYS !  Happy birthday Guillianna – sending love to mom dad and Elijah today too !

Forever and for Always-

From here to the moon and back, forever and always ,

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and ?Poppy ❤️

Happy birthday Elijah – so excited!

Dear Eli and Guillianna –


It was so good to see you and hear about the events the wins the hat trick !   The teams!  Three goals for one  and winning games for both.   Most of all the visible fun and smiles are everywhere and we are so grateful for every single chance to see you and your parents smiling.

Oh my gosh TROUBLE – adorable and – is so cuddly looking.   Wishing Elijah a very happy healthy birthday today and hopeful the year is full of all things good !

We love you forever and always,
To the moon and back.

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy ?

CHRISTMAS 2021


Merry Christmas ?

Dear Guillianna and Elijah –

nana and poppy along with Great grandma Sally and great Grandma Sharyn Great Papa and all the rest of your family from moms side of the family are sending you wishes for love good health and happiness on Christmas and ALWAYS !    We are hopeful your joy and excitement were over the top and you both feel loved.

we miss you so very much.    The last time you Poppy saw you was in the photo above.  The love you had in your hearts for him was pure and so genuine.    There are no words to say how much he misses you.    How much we both miss you – words could not begin to explain with any adequacy the heart felt loss that we share over not seeing our own daughter and her kids.   Now that guillianna has turned 13 and Elijah has turned 10 we meet the four year mark since you’ve been allowed to have a relationship with any of the people that were such a big part of your lives for 9 and 6 years.     Time will erase most of the memories.    And it’s our hope that the images and the memories you do have will bring back feelings of warmth and good.  There is likely a struggle between what you remember and know to be true and what has become a void of no Nana and No Poppy for you both.

We know you will have memories of us coming to your school performances.    Sharing in your grandparents day activities.   For us, nothing can change those beautiful memories.   Hopefully since Elijah was so much younger he will be able to forget the way he and poppy played – or replace those memories with new ones.   Hopefully while you were much older and spend more time with us – you will be able to keep the true emotion burning like a candle and balance it with new loves.  New experiences.     You will fill the void or absence where your love for Poppy and Nana with new friends.   New activities.   Keeping busy with School work and making dreams come true.

I know the images of this site will be forever.   I know the memories I have of your mom and how loved she always was and still is will resonate in our souls no matter what!

In a few years you will be in high school. And Elijah in middle school    That is hard to believe.  A lifetime is passing by.    Every day grandma sally follows you both in photos that appear on a screen in front of her.    She  loved when you came to visit her when she lived in Michigan and Guillianna  even visited her in Washington before Elijah was born.

Great Grandma and  Great Papa are also seeing photos of you guys  and praying you’re all well .  To some people they spend their lives with family – being around aunts and uncles cousins and grandparents.  Other families have great distance between them.   Due to jobs or schooling and other reasons –  our family misses you all.  We spent a lifetime trying to help mom and her sisters here in America trying to allow for them to  be close but in the end it was they who decided what was to be their journey – they choose what was best for them – and makes them feel happiest.

You will one day choose the journey you want.  What path will you embark upon ?   It’s hopeful you will always have a close loving relationship with each other, with your parents and when they are grandparents I hope they will get to share in the lives of their grandchildren.    Maybe- when they are older when you two get married or have children –  then they will learn how important it is and what great value grandchildren bring  to the lives of so many people especially grandparents and great grandparents –

 

one day I hope my daughter can spend the older years of her life sharing in all your kids life events.    Maybe she will learn to attach to others through your teaching her.     Maybe you two will be the conduit to teaching others how important family really is !

sending you much love at Christmas and every single day !  Hope Elfie and Snowflske visited and that Santa came – that you are healthy and happy.  We love you forever and always

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?

Happy Birthday – ❤️

Happy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Birthday ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Guillianna❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

 

We  miss you both so very much !  Here are just a few random memories for you to hold and keep close to your heart – the love letter for this your birthday – follows a series of photos from through the years …. Times you will not remember and some you may  – but they are all memories and images that we remember vividly –

 



 

Yes these are JUST A FEW OF SO SO MANY MEMORIES –

Random photos from years ago – I have so many to choose from …. Thankfully !

THANKFUL THAT WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE THE LETTERS WRITTEN TO MOM- written  IN AN EFFORT TO HAVE HER SHARE IN EVERY STEP OF THE JOURNEY DURING YIUR STAY IN THE MITTEN – please keep them and read them all, and see the smallest of nuances to your early years through to the age of nine for you,  and six for your brother.    One day you’ll be an adult – one day these letters will offer you keys and insight to your past and will meld the actual memories you have with the reality of a joyful time in your life –  one day into the future they can be preserved for your own family to see.   

Dear Guillianna and Elijah-

It has been nearly four years (just after Christmas ) since you left the Mitten state.  On each of the days that has passed we find ourselves wishing that you and all the family are healthy and happy.    We hope school is going great and your enjoying every moment.
Your birthday was always so magical.    From the moment you were born we could not wait to see you !   Nana and Poppy flew on two planes the instant we heard you had come to the world in a hurry – and we simply could not wait to see you in person and help your mom.


The fact is you were the very first grandchild we had and it was you who began calling us Nana and Poppy.    The names you gave us –  have carried on through all of the grandchildren ever since.   We flew in to the base you were born at to meet you and we helped mommy as she brought you home.   Poppy loaded up the car seat and we drove to your very  first home with you – literally just  a few days later mom brought you to ‘The Mitten’.  All your Mitten family got to meet you  and you were only days old.     You met your  Great Grandma Sharyn  and Papa Alan all of the Aunts and at that time there was only One uncle – Uncle Nick – as your aunts had not yet married and no other uncles or cousins were here they cam much later in your years in the mitten.   You were a princess surrounded by love.   Your mom was so very happy to have such a wonderful daughter.    She wanted then -as she does now – for you to have every chance to have the very best life has to offer.   The responsibility or commitment she made to the US Army meant that she would have to join her unit in the land of sand quickly after your birth and she asked Nana and Poppy to help make sure your were safe and healthy in the times of her deployment then and for all the other deployments and schooling she had to complete for the first nine years of your life.   Hence the gallery of photos we have and this historically illustrated and documented website.    We installed cameras so she could see you as you slept at night .  And we sent her love letters on this site and other social media platforms every day to make sure that when she could connect and see them – she was able to share in every aspect of your life.    We showed  you a video every day of you mom and dad so you would know thier faces and when they visited you knew them as your mom and your dad!

This photo was taken the first time they returned to the Mitten for some Rest and Relaxation.    You had not seen them in person for about ten months and were about ready to turn one year old!   The videos were so helpful because when they returned you had not forgotten them.   On your second trip back to the mitten you were just about a month old.     Your first ever Valentine’s Day was in the mitten.   And each and every detail of the months your parents  were away protecting this country was documented .


The moments of each day of your life between  your arrival in the Mitten the first year of your life can be found in the pages of this website.  After the first year and when Elijah was born and mom was not able to always get this site where she was stationed FaceTime came along – and the site was used a little less  yet still so many  photos and images of the happiness you two experienced will reman forever  in those images and in the hearts and minds of all those who had the pleasure of sharing in your lives    The photo above is your first birthday party   It was planned for your mom so she could celebrate you when she returned for a visit.      It was so hard for her to leave again after coming back and being with you .     I think that pain of having to leave – to finish her work in the land of sand was so very hard on her.   The hardest thing for a mom to see is when the person they love their daughter is torn in half and she was.    It was catastrophic for her to have her heart torn in half – so we did our best to create for you so many wonderful moments for you and for us together to make sure you always were surrounded by love.  You will not remember visiting huge portions of your infant life people who supported your mom in all she did and made sure her daughter was coated in love –   Aunt Ida and Aunt  Nancy, cousin Marisa and so many others were your biggest fans, you will not remember the many dinners with Great Grandma Sharyn or Great  Papa.  Trips to Chicago, Pittsburgh  or Washington.  You went up to  Northern Michigan and so many others !    You won’t remember laughter and so much fun playing with your aunts or swimming lessons with your uncle – but they will always treasure those times.  All we did with you we also did with your brother.    Every pediatrician appointment every single moment of every single day we loved you both – and still do !

There are thousands of images I could post in this love letter, and millions upon millions of memories.   Each and every one is a treasure to every person you and your brother have touched during your time in the Mitten.   As the years progressed and you grew, you made some amazing memories and had the best of friends at school from kindergarten to third grade.  You and Elijah are still missed by all and not ever have been forgotten.
As this day brings you to a milestone – and you enter the next chapter I hope you can keep tucked away in your heart the love we all share for you and your brother.


Dancing with your Poppy to ‘extravaganza glorious’ brings back to his heart a happiness that can’t be measured.    If not this dance at the holidays it was dancing to choreography you designed to Moana.   All of your mitten state cousins have grown so much.    Sebastian is going to be 5, is still super adorable and you always made him laugh … oh how you loved babies and likely still do !    You have not yet met little Robbie and they have a new brother on the way named Noah !   Cole is so big, Elena and Gray are too.   They now have chickens and a duck added to their family as well as  a new home – Elena has loved cheerleading just like you – and Gray plays football.    Soon Cole will be big enough but for now he enjoys all the older kids activities.   Anthony and Janai miss you too and  are doing great in school.  Covid has made their extra curricular lives difficult.   Mia always asks about you  – and while the family is in many states and everyone has different circumstances that prevent us from seeing each other, one thing is certain  …. There is not a single day that passes where your Poppy and I don’t miss you and Elijah to the moon and back !


May your birthday bring you lots of love – lots of laughter smiles that fill your heart – and We hope  these photos remind you of all the many amazing memories you have inside those amazing brains of yours.    I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but I will always be cheering for you and your brother to have happiness.   Hoping that one day you’ll be given the chance to reconcile the actual memories, the images in these photos within your soul and be allowed to keep the memories of your years in the mitten as they truly were – as warm,  loving and  good memories.    Rather than the images that have been likely altered to something  less than amazing and good.   It’s likely much of these formative years will fade.    We – the family you so loved – may very well all diminish as was intended by the demanded lack of contact – but the reality is no matter where life takes you and your brother – you can rest assured in a promise!   Know  the absolute factual truth that your lives-  beyond measure beyond words were happy – joyful and you felt so safe .    You were happy beyond belief during all your years here in the Mitten and you were loved and are loved, Not only by your parents but by all of us.





The memories are endless and we will always hold on to them dearly.   We are lucky to have some amazing grandchildren and hope that one day you can know all of them.

Simply put-  we wish for you to know that no matter what – the love a grandparent has for a grandchild (and the love they still have for their own children and their adult children too) is forever!  The wishes for you to have a happy birthday-  to be healthy,  to be happy and feel in your heart  how amazing you are are authentic .   Our wishes for Elijah are the same as for you !   May the two of you enter into this holiday season full of joy.


We love you both to the moon and back , forever and always ,

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and ?Poppy❤️