What do you see?

Dear Mom and Dad…

It is a beautiful day in Michigan.  I felt grass for the first time.  I picked a flower and I had a great day at camp.   I know you are both hurting very much.  I know how much you miss me, and want to be with me.   I am doing okay here.   You need not worry about who is caring for me, it is always the same family.   You need not worry when I am being fed, or how often I am changed.   I have no schedule, I get to eat as slow as I want, or discover as much as I want.   I have a very nice ‘situation’, and am growing and seem to be happy!  There is love and there is everything a princess can need for a ‘camp’ experience.   CAMP is just that, ‘C‘ertainly ‘A‘ ‘M‘omentary ‘P’lace…. A MOMENT IN A LIFETIME.   I will spend what is to be  a moment of my life with Nana and the gang…and don’t worry,  I will be keeping you up at night worrying about fevers, or school papers, projects  and a million other things soon enough.  I will be late coming home and will keep you worrying that I will fall and hurt myself when I ride a bike, or when I am sleeping too quietly.   I HAVE A BAZILLION THINGS I WILL BE DOING FOR YOU AND ONLY YOU…. SOON. 

   I told you I had picked a flower… so here it is…

Nana has been a ‘surrogate’ all her life.  A surrogate mom, or pet owner, a surrogate friend or spouse.  We hope that things will last forever, instead we find that all things are but temporary situations that go fleeting by when we least want them to, and seem to take an eternity when we just want them in the past!   She and Poppy have raised six kids now  –  whose lives are their own, but they still worry.   She can dream or hope for them so many different things, but the truth is, she had them all as her family to nurture them and let them grow.  Years and years of ups and downs…  THE POINT IS,  I am in most ‘C’ertainly ‘A’ ‘M’omentary ‘P’lace where she can do a few small things, like hold a bottle, or change a diaper while you work! When your work is done, and you have honored your promises to each other, you will have become the kind of father and mother you always wanted to be.   There is so much for you to do beyond these upcoming days and weeks…. they are a temporary problem, but being together again, accomplished in your goals… well that will make you both parents of integrity, of honesty and help us to live the princess dream!  Look at me mom and dad… tell me what do you see?

   I love the outdoors, the feel of the grass….

And how about this…

I had quite a day, it was full of sunshine and laughs… tell me.. what do you see in these as well… I am not feeling abandoned.  I am not afraid, and I will SNUGGLE BUNNNIES with you both when you come home.   I PROMISE!   It is not a perfect situation… but Nana says… nothing ever is… the secret is to make it the best situation it can be…. and for all the men and women who sacrifice so much …. to protect our freedom, well now you two both have a new appreciation for that sacrifice.  It’s been made by men and women before you, and I will always be SO PROUD TO SAY MY MOM AND DAD….THEYARE HEROS, and I am living proof of what Freedom can bring.    In my chapters is the story of how I came to be an American.   For me… it is my mom who traveled the world to become a citizen of the United States…. and you and she together protect her long journey.   You and she make all the heartache she endured as a child, and the loss of her mom, have a purpose other than sadness, you make it so that other kids like me, get to have the American dream we all hope to see… it begins and ends with being FREE, and that freedom has a price… that you are paying for me and everyone else.   THANK YOU… I am not a political scientist… I am just a baby… whose parents think they are hurting me, but in reality they are making a path for me, and so many others.   You feel you are doing nothing, or that you are abandoning me, and NANA and EVERYONE knows you are fulfilling a promise…. and no matter what anyone does to you, or says, no matter how wronged you may feel, TWO WRONGS can never make anything right.  YOU cannot be jaded by others who do things inappropriate.   SO I AM TOLD, since I am just a baby… I am only learning.   I just wanted you to know that both of you have your parents… who love and admire you.  They don’t want to see you hurt anymore than you would want to see me hurt.   They want you to feel as proud of your work as they are.   They want you to keep your head up, and your heart full of love, and your mind in a place that doesn’t focus on what is missing, but instead on what is going to be in each of our futures…

Today and always, where ever you may be, and no matter what the distance, I am always YOUR DAUGHTER, just fixin’ to get myself ready for when you come home, and you are done with your committment.  Safe, and happy.   We can then begin to embark on all the dreams you have for me, and the great SURPRISES I will surely have for you.   Love always, Little Miss Adorable,  your princess daughter,

The one …

the only…..

GUILLIANNA!

 PLEASE LOOK CLOSELY…. TELL ME WHAT YOUR HEART SAYS, AND HOW NANA CAN HELP EITHER OF YOU THROUGH WHAT IS SURELY THE MOST DIFFICULT OF TIMES…. THERE IS SO MUCH WE HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO, YOU TWO AND I, AND SO MUCH WE WILL DO TOGETHER.   THIS TIME APART WILL HOPEFULLY MAKE US CLOSER AND BUILD THE FOUNDATION FOR OUR FUTURE.   WHEN IT IS DONE, WE WILL ALL MOST CERTAINLY APPRECIATE WHAT WE HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH.  AND OUR FAMILY… OUR FRIENDS WILL HELP US  THROUGH IT.

XOXOXOXOXO

If we dream it, we will achieve it…with honesty and with integrity.   Poppy has had that motto his entire life, and nothing in life could be more important.   Being true to yourself, and to those you have engaged in this world.   No lies, no deceit, hard work and faith, will bring us all of our dreams and more! No matter what decisions are made, if they are done so with integrity, you will succeed. Success is measured in the happiness we not only have in our own lives, but in the happiness we bring to those we love.  I am happy Mom and Dad, YOU HAVE BEEN AWESOME, AND I AM TRYING TO SHOW YOU JUST HOW AWESOME EVERY SINGLE DAY WITH MY LETTERS….

I   love  you!

DON’T GIVE UP… WE ARE ALL GOING TO BE OKAY!

WOW…. I AM EXHAUSTED… Long Love Letter, but I thought you could use a little support…. afterall…. I AM A LITTLE HUMAN ‘SPIRIT’ STICK… and I am hoping I filled your heart with good positive “spirit  stick” energy today!      Afterall you would want me to good at my job wouldn’t you?     Go Mom and Dad… Go Wings… Go Gugu BEE!

P.S.   NANA AND POPPY SUPPORT YOUR DECISIONS… NO MATTER WHAT, SO LONG AS THEY ARE ALWAYS  HONEST AND FORTHRIGHT.   XOXO