Weekend fun is coming ….

Nana January 25, 2019 0Comments

Dear Guillianna and Elijah

The weekend is almost here and it should be a special one since there will be a very special birthday to celebrate!    We know how special you two make the day every day but we remember so many birthdays with you both and I am sue you will have a great weekend celebrating another one!       Surely the best present will simply be to have you all together for this special day.   I am careful to not write much detail or in anyway make angry our daughter, as I have been threatened with being taken to court.  Taken to court for writing these love letters?   I know it’s crazy to think that anyone would ever want to stop these letters and photos, take their own parents to court.  They hold so much joy and happiness yet the truth behind them seems to threaten any untruths that may have been told.    There is no negativity intended.   They are the only way two people who love you can communicate.   To send you love and ensure that you never feel abandoned by two people who have been with you since birth, who will love you forever.   To send you the knowledge that you are both forever loved, that we NEVER  ever failed to send you a Valentine, a birthday gift, that we didn’t forget the amazing memories and that we have tried our very best to please your parents and our family, to please you both and help you both through the early years of your life.    In our care you learned so much and grew so much!   You were always “IB” AMAZING, caring , kind, helpful, good to your friends and loving to your grandparents , parents family – everyone.   The most important thing is that the historical facts here in  are not threatening to the truth.

I guess… since honestly I can’t imagine,  why anyone would not want you to see your early years, your lives – your amazing memories of so many years.   The smiles the reality is all so good and healthy for you both.   Why would anyone not want you to have those memories?      It is sad if you are both being told these love letters will be harmful to your future.   The truth is you can be proud of your past.   You have so much to be happy and grateful for.   Proud to be a part of everything that ever happened in the Mitten and in our care.  To be told otherwise is beyond sad and beyond unthinkable, for it would be lies and it would harm innocent children.   The part that is most sad – is that it seems it must be kept locked away deep inside of you since your love for us would be unacceptable to people who you love and now begin a new journey with.   The hope is that this journal or catalog of memories and historical facts will be something that you may or may not want when you grow older, when your own children grow older … who knows.    And maybe they will be forgotten and unimportant to anyone .   One day you each will be free to make that choice.   If unwanted  by the two of you the stories of love are simply become letters written by us as our autobiography as your grandparents , the story of where things began.    These love letters represent opportunity, not detriment, they are healing, not hurtful, they are love and always have been.    When this site was made, as I have said before, Guillianna was but days old  All About Guillianna,   Love Letters to Mom and Dad, then Elijah was born, the domain name purchased stayed the same!   However – this is all about how the information you’re given is delivered to the two of you.      Be true to your hearts – love for mom and dad and all your family is good and positive.     We will always love you both – to the moon and back

forever and for always

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?

Thursday in The Mitten

Nana January 24, 2019 0Comments

Dear Guillianna and Elijah-

be strong in all you do, know you are loved by so many in all you do, think of happiness and the love that has always been yours in all that you do and take the love and pass it along.

Make the dreams in your hearts become reality and know we will always love you both – day in and day out.  The value the honor we taught you to have for the work of your parents , the pride, we always have had in being of service- and the smiles it brought to you as you learned these lessons !

Always know – we love you both to the moon and back, forever and for always,

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?

Another wish …

Nana January 23, 2019 0Comments

Dear Guillianna and Elijah-

How many ways can a Nana and Poppy say they love you ?    How many different words can we send to make you feel our love and our wishes for happiness?     The hope that you are loving new adventures is sincere.   The hope that you’re all doing well and adjusting is constant.     Things in the Mitten have been icy and cold in terms of weather and all your family here is doing well.

Uncle David continues to work hard every day to fight his own medical battle and he is a true warrior.    All of your great grandparents are doing well and surely send love and kisses.    Poppy and I keep as busy as can be and have settled in to our home a bit more, admittedly it has been very difficult.    This past year has brought us so much change for us as well .    The time both of us spend sending these love letters is important to us both and it is so full of happy memories that it brings our love and gratitude to the forefront each day or when ever we have a chance to write.

Gratitude for time spent together and the warmth felt when remembering the things you both did, said, and how each day had it’s own special memory.   Rides to school and pick up  each day, with so many tales of the day, dream starters and all of the ‘specials’ we did together, the little nuances of life that we have not ever taken for granted seem to bring us smiles as we write and read this journal of love.

We look forward to a day where we can see each other again, share in your new adventures, and see those smiles!   Until we do we continue to hold on to the knowledge that your foundation here in the Mitten was strong enough and full of love that it will help you all the days of your lives.   The education was such a great start and you were both such amazing students, friends, and actually lived each day full of compassion, caring, and commitment to giving your best.   These things don’t disappear either – they are foundational and will be useful in all you do in life.    We love you both to the moon and back,

forever and for always

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?

Moments in time ….

Nana January 22, 2019 0Comments

Dear Guillianna and Elijah-

This is a memory from my “on this date”.    Cheerleading was your moms idea.  She loved it as a girl and then you loved it too.    They did not however love the traveling aspect and level of competition you were involved in and decided to change you into other activities.

One of many changes in your world that happened overnight.    All changes leading to good things and happiness,  we are hopeful.    Yet since these photos came along – in my photo stream and we looked at them and said look at that smile … look at the pure joy … there is no way we will ever believe you were unhappy and nothing will change that you were literally begging to call Poppy last time I spoke to you on FaceTime.  You were promised that you could the next day.   Never happened.    There is something so very wrong and yet the dilemma is, how does a small child chose – knowing it would sadden their parent or parents  whom they love deeply,  parents whom have shown or proven to  them they are all powerful, will change every aspect of their lives, and all they have is what the parents deem acceptable, their memories have been manipulated and forced to leave behind any part of who they have been.   This need to survive, to feel loved and to please and all the while knowing how they loved us, how they loved their time in the Mitten – but in admitting it, or feeling that , in doing so they would be , letting down their mom and dad.    The choice on the part of us, both your Nana and Poppy is -to not contribute to the hurt.   Our desire is Not to make harder the situation, but rather make sure you know we asked, called, texted,  emailed, mailed,  begged and to each and every request the response given is that we have been cut out like a kindergartner curs our paper snowflakes- and this series of letters.   This dedication to prevent repeated history , and let two more children fall victim to feelings of distrust and abandonment, we write to make certain you know you’re loved by all, that there is great sorrow for how you two  have been innocent in all of this,  and how broken your souls could end up to be by the severing of such important ties.   These letters are to say.  DO NOT BE SAD, do not be mad, simply try to understand there are many different individual ideas in this world.   To believe in love and family to believe in kindness respect and human compassion.    It is all good and having respect and love for your parents is important to your future children and to yourselves.     Your mom and dad will one day likely have grandchildren- and they will learn from you how to treat others.     How to respect differences and to pass on values.   Mom and Nana have had so many discussions in the past about how raising children “does not come with a book of instructions”, and one thing we can hope she will see very soon – is that her children deserve to have all of the family they grew up around for nine and six years of their lives.   Their entire lives until 12 months ago… and in 365 days if something has happened to change their hearts, that will have to be owned by whole ever has created such falsehood.   If they wish to see or speak to us and have been forbidden – or are afraid to ask – we’ll all we can do is hope that there is a change.    An effort –  To put aside any issue that has been convoluted and distorted from partial truths into this great divide, for our own daughter to put aside her lack of faith in those who have loved her, put aside her feelings towards those she paonts as less than good and loving , and hear the heart of her children.   If she cannot trust and believe in her own parents – then we can only hope one day soon she see clearly that she had the very best father, the very best Poppy to her children, that any person could ever hope for.   As to me, I am far from perfect.  Yet it is our hope she will see me as a woman who loved her- no one can ever tell me different ,  a person who tried to give her the piece that was missing from deep within her, taken from her around the same age( a bit younger)  as Guillianna was when she left the Mitten.     I was the best parent I could be, loved to the depth of my soul and to the broken hearted, it was not enough.   There is no way ever that her grown children will ever be able to forget the love of great grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins and their Nana and Poppy.    The memories can be twisted and attempts can be made to change those memories, but the reality is they are real and honest memories.    The effort made to forget people, leave behind memories,  or change the good memories into something bad – only has potential to hurt innocent children.

The website was made before this little man was born -as a matter of fact the domain name was purchased about three years before he was born -hence its name, guillianna.com, the love letters written then were to help our daughter see her child every day !   To share with her the detail and events –  to bridge the distance.    Then when Elijah was born the domain name had to  stay the same, but the title went from ALL ABOUT GUILLIANNA to ALL ABOUT GUILLIANNA AND ELIJAH, and has since changed from ‘love letters to mom and dad’, to ‘love letters to Guillianna and Elijah’.

These letters of love are not an embarrassment, they are not a source of anything bad or destructive.   They area gift, they are to show innocent little lives that no one abandoned them, that they are not responsible for any of this, that they are very good people and they were always very happy .  These letters are to defend the truth, to put in place a way for young adults to understand what is impossible for even adults to comprehend.    There are tens of thousands of images, documents and all kinds of evidence to chronical the lives of Nana and Poppy.    The journey we have been on, and the time that has passed – this information and these photos –  cannot be twisted into lies. For every image there is a story, for every moment in the time that was spent in the Mitten- there is – has been, and always will be, love. ❤️

We love you Guillianna and Elijah, to the moon and back –

forever and for always,

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?