Dear Guillianna and Elijah…
Every holiday that approaches or passes – thus far Christmas and now Valentine’s Day , it is beyond words and beyond sad to us both that we have been forbidden to send you cards or gifts to let you see or hear from us … and it is so disheartening to not know how to convey our love. We don’t know if you wonder what happened? Why we would ever stop? If you believe anything untrue? If you think we have forgotten you. We personally feel that by following the demand to not send cards and gifts we have played into the hands Of a very sad plan. If anyone was looking to vilify us, to say we didn’t care or create a new bond by deprivation of another – it is beyond words and impossible for us to comprehend, let alone to expect a child to. SO despite how confusing this all is, despite how sorrowful it is, all we can do is write this journal. For today – We will simply wish you both a HAPPY VALENTINES DAY – never once have we forgotten, never would we ever forget a holiday, or for that matter, we don’t forget you on any regular plain old day. We love you both and each day, know we are here – thinking of you and hoping for your happiness. We send our love and we hope one day soon the situation changes. The realization of how you are both worthy of having grandparents such as Poppy and I in your lives and that your memories of us are good and important to you, to us, to all of those you’ve been disconnected from. If only there were a way for this to be discussed and resolved. To provide the security needed by adults to realize family has value. Nana and Poppy are not criminals who are unworthy of being active in your lives. We have not ever done anything to warrant the way we have been removed from your lives. So when we wonder what you must think? When we ask did they think we just forgot about them? If we didn’t just abandon you , then could you have been led to believe we are so bad that we are villains ? The idea that our own child could allow this 180 degree change is more than worrisome to us. What has happened ? For us , is yet another unimaginable loss emotionally that we ourselves can not understand either.
We began this journal of love letters – right around this time many years ago Guillianna was but a few months old. The domain was built and it was originally love letters to mom and dad all about Guillianna These letters of love written so long ago are all here For every single day we were with you we made sure mom and dad would be able to see their daughter. To help our daughter know every moment possible. Then when Elijah was born we titled it “all about Guillianna and Eli-Love letters to mom and Dad”. It has since evolved yet again to be Love Letters to the two of you. Now a decade later I write today wishing you happy Valentine’s Day !
This Valentine’s Day we write to you to say love ❤️ is and always will be what carries us through. We love our family, we hope that one day soon we can resolve any doubt any issue any question you could possibly ever have about our role as your grandparents. We want our children to be happy. The definition of happiness for everyone is different. What some people feel is important others may not. What some people like – others may not. What some people want, others may not. In these past months we have seen so many things change and drastic measures taken, that it has caused so much concern. We worry for a multitude of reasons and yet we are helpless. You have spent 9 and 6 years of your lives involved with so many here in the Mitten. A year has passed since leaving and looking to the next 8 years, when one of you reaches 18, so many more things will continue to evolve and change. All of these letters from early on reflect upon the Mitten journeys and show love and joy m, happiness and dedication. When Poppy and I reflect on these past 10 years we have surely witnessed how life changes. It’s true how delicate relationships can be. The reality of how fragile and important the balance of relationships in our lives truly can be is clear . This journal will not ever replace the time you’ve recently missed with those who love you, and with whom you have lived with for so long, with friends who have written you, cousins who have not seen you great grandparents who wish only good and wonderful things for you, their children and their grandchildren – it cannot ever fully express the love that all of these people have for you both , yet it is a historical reflection of a huge portion of your young lives. Can it help the innocent people affected by the decisions of others? That is our hope. Poppy and I were both raised to believe in family and love ❤️ for us those values or principles will always remain. To share with you a hope that you can keep the good warm happy memories where ever life leads you. Hope for great memories to prevail and ward off any doubt you could ever feel about how we feel about you . Hope for bright and wonderful new memories to be made and hope for you to one day be free to remember us and all of your family you’ve surely missed with warmth and love.
We love you to the moon and back –
forever and for always –
XOXOXOXOXOXO
❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?