A day after Christmas, and the inconceivable …

Nana December 26, 2018 0Comments

Dear Guillianna and Elijah,

It is the day after Christmas and we are still shocked that the opportunity , the hope and Christmas wish that you’d be granted a call to us for Christmas, came and went unanswered  .   The chance for you two to see all your cousins and wish great grandparents and us too,  happy holidays-  missed opportunity at the chance to share in kindness and love from the family you two have always loved and spent these holidays with has vanished from,  but  despite any holiday or birthday or marking of significant dates you must always know — EVERY DAY we love you from here to the moon and back, forever and for always … and no distance no manipulation of reality or truths,   will ever change the memories we have or the love felt for you both .

The fact that small children must disassociate themselves from people they loved so much ,  to please others ,  is simply gut wrenching.   It’s is all we can do to simply hope hope you had a beautiful Christmas and were able to spread Christmas cheer to new people, maybe some in your daddy’s family and grow and create new loving relationships.   We will  hope your holiday was full of new traditions, love,  laughter and preparations so that the joy you have  is able to outweigh the sorrow and loss.

Merry Christmas sweet children and know that our hearts are full with the love  for you two and for the love you have always had for us and shown us and wishes for amazing tomorrows !   We hope the gifts given and the gifts received this Christmas make your hearts soar, and that some how some way you can still  feel the love we have for you both, despite not being allowed to see or talk to us, despite gifts from us being withheld !  The most important gift we can gift you now is these letters of love that will hopefully one day heal the fractured heart.   May you always remember that Nana/Poppy extravaganza glorious love never goes away!

YOU ARE Loved to the moon and back,

forever and for always,

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?

MERRY CHRISTMAS ?

Nana December 25, 2018 0Comments

Dear Guillianna and Elijah –

Merry Christmas to you both.     We want you to know this being the only Christmas ever in your lives you did not hear from us or see us or get a hug , we love you ? both so very much.     TO THE MOON AND BACK FOREVER and FOR ALWAYS –

Wishing you happiness, peace, days full of laughter, love and memories that warm your soul !

There are no words for the loss and sorrow  that is likely shared by so many at this time-

The only gift we are “allowed” to send to you both this Christmas , as we have been forewarned they are “unwanted by you two” –  is our hope ( and hope is something no one can take from another person) … so please know we send our hope, our dreams, our love!   You two have a shining light inside your hearts,  that will always know truth.     May the days and nights always hold on to that light inside and keep you free of any emotional harm, and  any sorrow of loss,  that you carry into adulthood.

We love you to the moon and back

forever and for always,

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?

Christmas Eve!

Nana December 24, 2018 0Comments

Dear Guillianna and Elijah –

As the holiday comes again, only this year  is so different – being a first year ever – for you two without your Nana and Poppy active in your lives to share in it –

We will continue to write and some of our letters will open fully and others may be a excerpt and the letter more private will not post completely .    The objective of our letters  is quite simple – an attempt  to ensure that two very innocent and wonderful children who left the Mitten  and were very much in love with family and friends are never in a position to think they have been forgotten or to share with you later in life a pictorial and real look into the foundation of your time in the Mitten!   Of course it is our  hope they will see the love is constant and never ending .   To make sure you understand that you are amazing to so many and are not and did not deserve any of this of this situation.  The love letters – are a gift,  not meant to be an antagonism, but rather a loving tool or a key to one day utilize when trying to understand what is only complex incomprehensible otherwise – and for that reason we will make sure private information remains private and  the love letters are here for you when you want them or are old enough to have them all.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!

We love you both to the moon and back ,

forever and for always,

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?

Poppy at football ? as Nana bakes!

Nana December 23, 2018 0Comments

Dear Guillianna ad Elijah-

Today is Sunday and I am making things for Christmas Eve as I always do ,  while Poppy is at a Detroit Lions football game.   I am thinking to myself it’s almost one year since we have been able to hug you.  For you two hugs, Nana Poppy fun and laughter was everything when we last saw you.  It remains an unexplainable and surreal tragedy for you two and for everyone else this has encompassed.   So many relationships harmed and so many people hurting .   Parents – grandparents  siblings and cousins other children you two had befriended it’s all so sad.    It’s true that we cannot and could not have ever imagined  anything that has transpired in this past months !     We hope you will learn all about trust again  and know that mom and dad love you and have big plans for what they want for you –  I know that great grandparents also have great hope and wonderful dreams for your mom and for her children.   They love you all.   The same for Nana and Poppy , we love our  family and your mom included –  and while want her happy, we are also so confused by the abrupt changes.    We want her kids, you two,  to have love happiness good health.   After all this major change was brought  upon you both we hope you will be able to stay strong and believe in the good – believe in the love and believe in  the memories of what truly was.   To know it’s ok, and we understand that you cannot split yourself in half emotionally between the love you felt with us for so very long   and the now out of this world animosity directed towards us that is being  shown at present.   Our hope is that despite it all we  will eventually see a glimmer of hope in our own daughter-   that it is learned sooner than later,  what gratitude is.    We know for sure that you two always had so much gratitude and  always lived with it in your hearts.   Grateful for all the fun the love the memories that you know are real but may feel they cannot ever be shared, or that no one could possibly understand that you love the very people or memories that your parents seem to dislike !    That is the horrible predicament and we want you to know love is stronger than not being able to call, and love is always and forever – it is not asking someone to choose but loving enough to allow you to remember all the love fun and happiness you had.   It seems if there is any truth to this idea you do not wish to see or speak to us – that stories have been conjugated and manufactured or manipulated and misunderstood to create  new demons that  small children will get to carry.    It seems truth is either non existent or it is contorted to tear the love you had away at its surface  and replace it with pain.    The idea that you two wanted us to continue to take you to school in the morning or pick up after school even when your mom and dad could ,  but now hate us ?   Yet never have you said this, and even when we had spoken it’s always been quite opposite.   Is this all to help you to forget that there was so much happiness that existed in nine years time, in an effort for you to reattach and make a bond.   No matter what happens, what journey you are on, no matter how old you grow-  there will always be many people hoping and helping you, believing in you both.   Poppy and I are only two people of so many !

We love you both to the moon and back

forever and for always

XOXOXOXOXOXO

❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?