Dear Guillianna and Elijah-
This is a “selfie” sent to me from you two one day long ago , looks like the two of you are doing some “sha guge eli agins” – Fun times for sure !
The school week is underway and the first full week after s holiday break is always a little hard in that you have to get back into the routine of school, the holidays are over and the lessons at school begin , however there IS something GREAT to look forward to. VALENTINES DAY ! Making Valentines for classmates, the memories of Valentine’s Day passed- it is after all the day of ❤️LOVE ❤️
That is something everyone has in common when it comes to the two of you. Love! Last year for Valentines day Nana and Poppy were just beginning to see what would be ahead. A year ago today Youd only been gone a few days and we had thought you would be back for a post operative check in a few weeks. After all that was what we were told when we asked why everything was being left behind- we were told all your belongings were still in the Mitten because you would be back in a few weeks as well as for visits and there was no indication of what lay ahead. In January I got a reminder call from the doctor’s office, and so I spoke to mom, we learned you were not coming then but would another time . In February we sent you each Valentines boxes with surprises inside. Up to then we had begun sending post cards and using a special photo app, to send you love notes , to help you know we were thinking of you , and try to help since the last words we heard as you two were literally sobbing in the car as you left was that “yes, you’d be able to call ”, and would yes “you would be back on a few weeks”. At you’re request( both of you asked and loved getting it ) we used to send you “lunch love” every day at school and so I began sending these cards to you at your new home. Then, we sent the Valentines to you both. This is when we recognized there was serious change and what we later learned was that these things were being withheld. As time continued to pass we began to see that there was an alternative course being taken and it was not until May following numerous requests to see or talk to you, that phone numbers were changed and contact was stopped by your parents. The letters and cards we sent have been saved for you in digital format and you will one day know that we didn’t stop caring, we didn’t stop loving you, we simply , like you, were in the position to watch the unthinkable unfold .
This is a sculpture – it depicts the feeling of loss – and it is without question applicable to us in so many ways- And we feared that you two at such a young age, would be subject to similar feelings. It has been proven that physiological and psychological changes can be seen following significant loss and can significantly impact everything in your body in so many different ways – As time passed and the situation grew worse we began to write these letters again. To try to help fill in, and piece together the huge void in all of our lives. While each of us is different and opinions on “how to “ or “what is best” may greatly vary- one thing is sure. Everyone loves Guillianna and Elijah, everyone has been impacted and as people who have been primary care givers for so long with experience and knowledge beyond that of small children or even our own adult children, we will work so hard to make sure we take any and all steps we can to help heal the broken heart- be it yours, ours, our daughter, the family – any and all of those whom have loved you both for so many years ! The love ❤️ is so real and sincere you can see it in every single photo and feel it in ever sing memory. Never forget how loved and lucky you both are to have so many who think of you all the time are wishing happiness for you always and want or see you excel in your life choices . You do have so many family and friends who send you love hugs and kisses!
We hope you school week is underway and that with all else in the week you must do- that helping you along the way is the feeling of love and support. It’s our belief that your understanding of our absence has been tailored or manufactured/contrived to allow the belief that our absence is for reasons that are not factual. Love, like what you two have known is not imaginary, and it doesn’t disappear. We will always hope for a change of heart. This website has been around since Guillianna was but weeks old, and one day you may see it again. Our hope is if you do at least some of the emptiness you could feel as a child will be replaced with the warmth, hope love and gratitude we feel in our hearts when we think of you.
We love you both to the moon and back,
forever and for always,
XOXOXOXOXOXO
❤️Nana and Poppy❤️?
The selfie you two took on Nana’s IPad were the faces I remember so vividly. “i just love that face.” I said that phrase a lot. I miss you both sooooo much. Can’t really put my emotions into words. I love you!!!!!