The weekend always was fun time in the Mitten do we hope that is still the case. Activities to keep you busy and happy, and a lot of laughter too . Maybe you’re baking a bit these days ! Hoping you always choose to be happy and choose love ❤️ over negativity. You’re so very loved and one day likely when you’re grown- all that you remember of tuck always in your heart will be uncovered released and warm your souls!
Things in the Mitten are cold then warm then cold then warm. Not our usual winter for sure. We are missing you and hope you had a good week. Sending you love from here to the moon and back
I hope that when you’re grown that you’ll never have to ask yourselves “what if?” To imagine our own children asking themselves “what if ? I had just listened, What if I just trusted? , what if I didn’t cut out my grandparents and parents and siblings, nieces and nephews from my life like paper snowflakes? , what if my parents have loved me all along the very same way I love my children? , what if it was I who simply could not allow myself to trust?” I wonder if Aunt Alyx would be here today if she could have asked “ what if I listen to my mom and dad and stay away from drugs ?” “What if I trust the people who love me?” What if everything Nana and Poppy have ever done with and for me, And my kids, Guillianna and Elijah, was pure love and yet the past didn’t allow it to be seen? What if Nana and Poppy should not have been removed from your lives ? All of these “WHAT IF “ questions are not in this situation , yours to ask. You never have to wonder what if about anything to do with what has transpired over these past months. This is not your fault. THIS WHOLE SAD STORY , has not been your fault. Great grandparents, cousins, aunts , uncles, not being spoken to or seen, birthdays missed, Christmas and New Years wishes, and all had been your life in the past is not something for you to ever worry about for it has not been something you can or should have to ever worry about. When you’re older you will have opportunities to see or speak to those who are still here, and they will welcome the chance to get it hear all about your lives ! And as to anyone who you could potentially not see again- depending upon your parents intentions, they know how you have lived them. We absolutely know how much love you have had in your hearts and all the wonderful moments we have shared. That is what we will always treasure. You must not ever feel responsible for any of these sad things for you are not responsible.
Instead we hope you’ll see all the wonderful things you did while in the Mitten , we hope you’ll remember all the wonderful people who were a part of your lives and you a part of theirs …
We love you both to the moon and back –
forever and for always –
Remember this – you are both so deserving of all the good memories, of more time with those you love, deserving of more Mitten memories and trips to visit , and we will always hope that one day people who could help you to have more of all things good more time more love and fun, will say what if ? To themselves and actually try to see truth see life given as a gift to be grateful for rather than not enough . Ask seriously of self – What if Nana and Poppy have only ever loved our children and tried to break though the barriers of a very difficult Romanian past – and despite our inability to reach some hearts, we still do believe in love and that love can win and one day your mom will see her parents, as they truly are, and what they meant to her children, if not herself.
Hope you will one day know how loved you are by so many people – we hope you are working hard at learning, building the very best possible lives for yourselves and always know that we are so sad for the fact that grown up problems have so severely affected the two of you. The most important thing we can try to accomplish is to spare you both from ever thinking it is your fault, that it is abnormal to love your grand parents, that anyone should ever have to choose between love and approval from parents and their grandparents. Grandparents are meant to help you as you grow, to allow you to feel happy and safe when in our care, and for you to ever imagine anything less than that, while living in the Mitten, is more than just unfair, it would be hurtful to you and your future happiness. So today we will say again – we love you, we hope you are working hard at making your tomorrows bright and that you are treating others the way you would always hope to be treated. I hope our daughter can learn this same lesson in time – that how she treats her parents, if she lies to her self or others and tells herself and you that you were unhappy here in the Mitten, the present day gain she feels in holding you back from having a relationship will be short lived. Her anger or distrust comes from something far beyond your current ability to understand and it is totally personal, believing no one is trustworthy, that you had a bad experience in the Mitten and making it look as though you can only trust her, enables her to continue a self fulfilling prophecy, it seems by the actions thus far – someone has made certain you both are fed the untruths-, that life for you in the Mitten was bad. and if she is honest and allows the real feelings of love and joy And try helping her children have accessibility to all they loved in the Mitten, and not attempting to serve her own personal agenda or feeding her own issues and need to hate, over the need of others to love . That day will be the day you’ll get to call when ever you want, see all those you love, visit and spend time with family and friends in the Mitten.
We love you both and are so sad that you have been in the middle of this very sad situation. We will hope for you to live with millions of new memories being made, filling you lives with laughter and new experiences , that when they are coupled with all the good memories of your years in the Mitten – the end result can and should be pure joy and happiness,Again, remember we will always love you both – to the moon and back , forever and for always
Today would have been Aunt Alyx’s 31rst birthday … and it is exceptionally hard to be uplifting in writing about such sadness, especially when Nana and Poppy can’t see Aunt Alyx- and equally sad when people we love who are living yet choose not to see us. The words I write in my letters are to keep looking for what is good and what I am grateful for. To remind myself and you both to keep the chin up, look at the positive and the good that all of us have in our lives and while we can be sad for the choices others make we can hold on to the good memories.
It’s true Alyx had many emotional issues. The doctors tried to help her but she often didn’t listen. After being left in an orphanage she felt abandoned by her Romanian family. She then came to the United States of America and began a new life. The emotional scars of young children can carry so much unforgiving weight and some of our children have had real difficulty handling the adult reactive challenges they faced when grown. The fears, the parts of their development that allows them to trust, and see people for who they are and not what they assume. These love letters are so important to us. Even if they prove to be worthless to anyone or everyone else, they are feeling from our heart and our sincere concern for your healthy and conscious knowledge of our love and dedication to your happiness, safety, growth/development during your time in the Mitten and to this day, and for ever and always… The knowledge of this fact, the truth felt in your hearts can only help you when grown. No abandonment, no resentment, no need for you to ask why didn’t we care for you, whey didn’t we send you cards, birthday gifts and love letters – for we did. We did all that was humanly possible to please your parents and care for you both. That knowledge can be key to a security that has eluded some of our children. We have never been able to get some to see what was right there before them, blind to the love, having parents and a home, redial to allow any feeling of love, comfort of allowing themselves to attach , no appreciation for the pleasures, the fun, opportunities. The fear, the emotional trauma of the past was carried and fed. The result devastating for us – but we when we see all of the good memories, when we see the many many things we can be grateful for we are uplifted. You two are here in this world and born to two people who love you because Poppy and Nana loved, all the grandchildren, all of the laughter and good memories cannot be erased or “cut out of life” … and if these memories are only fed, or given, negativity- the long term result saddens both Poppy and I. The childhood memories that could have been tainted, become a little more clear when you see the smiles and the joy in your childhood photos on this site, in your memories in your head and as you make more. Here are some memories of Aunt Alyx!
We know you can’t remember her well, since in the past stay of three years in the Mitten, you only ever saw her twice once when we had the family photo taken with mom and dad returned from Korea, and the night before st a family dinner. When you were small she was there every day – and she struggled every day
We hope you will always know and remember this simple truth- we love you both to the moon and back,
Nana
Dear Guillianna and Elijah 
We love you both to the moon and back –
Dear Guillianna and Elijah-
